Sad and tired
November 15th 2005 by cybertoad in gripesI feel so beat up today – I have a horrible case of malaise. I don’t know why I feel this way. I feel overwhelmed, tired, sad, sore…
I am extremely overwhelmed here at work and falling behind. I need to organize but can’t seem to. I am having to discipline a team member today and am not looking forward to it (I hate personnel issues).
I am tired and have been tired for the past month or more. I need to do something about it but I don’t know what. I am trying to go to sleep a little earlier and I am sleeping well but this doesn’t seem to be enough. I need to get on the treadmill but again I am lacking the time, energy and motivation.
I am sad because a friend of ours passed away this weekend at the young age of 37. He had a stroke and never recovered. Almost everyone in our group of friends worked with or for him at some point in the last 8 years. He leaves behind 3 children (12, 7 & 4), and a wife. I personally did not work with him but Kenny did. Needless to say it has shocked the group.
I am sore from my flight yesterday. The flight was uneventful – I finished my book and slept a little – but at one point I stretched and the right-side of my neck tightened. It was so painful I almost cried out but I didn’t want to upset anyone around me. The pain subsided and I was able to sleep a little more. It was much better by the time we landed but today it is noticeably sore again. Ugh.
I just don’t know – I am emotional today. I feel like I am on the verge of tears. Every call makes me slouch a little more, makes me get quiet a little more. Everything is an effort today and nothing has made it any easier. *sigh* I may just go to lunch by myself and have a good cry. That sometimes works.
November 15th, 2005 at 2:00 pm
I’m sorry to hear about your friend. That is indeed quite sad. I’ll keep his family in my prayers. ” It was so painful I almost cried out but I didn’t want to upset anyone around me.” When you are in pain, it is okay to upset those around you. Cry out darlin’. I hope you feel better soon.
November 15th, 2005 at 3:30 pm
*hugs* Elaine… maybe you can turn off the lights in your office, close the door, and then have a good cry. or you can take Betty the Beetle out and have a quite drive with no music (it’ll be too cold tonight to keep your windows down).
November 15th, 2005 at 3:30 pm
quiet drive, not quite drive
November 16th, 2005 at 7:28 am
big hugs Elaine.. Just take everything one thing at a time and if you need it, take some time off, spend time in the garden.
November 16th, 2005 at 1:37 pm
(*Hugs*) Sometimes things in life can be overwhelming, but with such a great personality,you are sure to find your rainbows soon. Crying can be very cleansing but also taxing on the body. Remember to set aside some “me” time and your friends will be here to lend an ear should want one.
Much love,
November 17th, 2005 at 1:30 am
Who? (You can e-mail me, I’m sure you don’t want to post it here.) That is so terribly sad. No wonder you are feeling malaise like that. I think this time of year can be hard too, plus work … all of it combined can be too much.
We should all get together Friday night. I knew I missed you, but I didn’t realize how much until I saw you last Friday. Let me know if you have plans to go out or stay in, etc. Sounds like some time in the company of friends might help.